Today I wanted to touch on pushing through fear.
Our central nervous systems most important task is most likely to keep us alive. It likes things safe..and SAFE is THE SAME as what you've already been doing. So if you've survived binge eating, drinking, smoking, doing heroine long enough...that is your new safe. Your baseline.
You're central nervous system knows it can survive under these conditions and therefore will want to keep you doing those things. You're Central Nervous System is a safety mechanism...not much of a long term planner. Therefore anything that is new or exciting...different from what our minds and body are used to will trigger cortisol and adrenalin causing excitement or fear. Tony Robbins would say that's up to you how to translate the chemical reaction taking place in your body. None the less, when you feel fear. You are feeling a chemical reaction take place in your body.
Fear can be a motivator or a deterrent...whatever you decide it is, you're gonna need to get through it to win. Most of my successes that you are now starting to see have come from pushing through the fear. The fear of what if...the fear of letting my mind project a negative or unpleasant journey or outcome and just DOING IT.
STORY: Yesterday I was at the gym. Not my gym...but one in LA. Crowded, with different smells and different machines making it impossible to do the workouts I planned so meticulously for the results I want. I HAD A PLAN MAN!!!! MY CNS (central nervous system) was going BONKERS!!!!
My workouts are hard enough for me now...two hours of super sets and giant sets with never more than 3 minutes of rest. Now this crowded gym, the wrong weights, in a foreign land....Why THE Heck am I here!!!!
I'll tell you why I'm here at a gym in LA while I'm visiting. Because all the success I've acquired has required pushing past the fear into what can feel uncomfortable. I believe in going the extra mile with no excuses...why? Cause I'm fairly certain it's a timeless principal of success.
So yesterday I was at the gym...tired and uncomfortable, why? Because I left the safety of healthily booking solid roles in movies and television for growth and am in LA taking meetings looking for how to expand my team with win/win type people. I left without having any proper meetings lined up (begin before your ready) but I KNEW I had the connections to get those meetings and I felt me being there would create the shift between not having meetings and having meetings. Another principal of success. It's working. Also I recently opened myself up to dating and vulnerability. Dated an amazing girl for a month, loved and respected the person she was but we both knew it wasn't a fit so ended it. That was scary and hurt, luckily not as much as my last relationship. Also coming off of one show into several more plus call backs and letting go of the day job has been fearful but it is logical with the amount of auditions I'm getting to allocate my time and trust that I will continue to grow as a more and more useful working actor, another reason I'm in LA is to increase my value and learn more quicker.
So I'm AT the GYM and EVERY REP I just wanna QUIT. All these things are hitting me. Wrong weights, coming off of multi acting jobs on hold for my next, a great first date, 2 relationships that ended, leaving the safety of booking Guest Star roles and supporting roles in Indi's to wanting supporting roles in Major Motion pictures and series regs, I feel sick I feel weak. But I keep going. I'm angry, I'm sad, and happy and proud of myself then that rapidly changes to something darker and depressing.....my acting teacher, Anthony Abeson, always said motion creates emotion. I'm moving through it all within a 2 hour stretch and I AM NOT QUITTING.
After 2 hours I'm done...and this is one of those workouts to where I really wanted to be done, I tried every positive visualization I could of WHY I was doing this, and it just wasn't working. But I DID it! Felt good for about 3 minutes. A blessed 3 minutes! Is that all I get? 3 minutes of feeling good. Heck no.
Moral of Story
There's something magical about pushing yourself past your limits and doing things you don't want to do when no one is there rooting for you or pushing you to finish. There's an inner strength there. It's not so much the physical results as much as the spiritual results that come with putting it all on the line again and again. It creates confidence and a belief that you deserve good things because you go the extra mile for yourself. I know that it'll pay off in the long run, because I'm building character. Within the last 15 months I've become a working actor and a more grateful person. Those have been my results that you can clearly see. It's a very difficult field to get a job in and I've accrued quite a few jobs in a relatively short time. So if there's anything from this blog you feel like stealing and making your own. I'm happy to share.
Lets see what the compound interest of pushing through fear again and again brings next she'll we.
#LiveYourDreams If I can do it, and you want to do it, I know.....YOU CAN DO IT!!! #YouCanDoItAllNightLong !!!!!
Michael Patrick Lane